http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zzDaPrSbs2c Today is my last day at this wonderful place. Dr. Brassard and his staff are an incredible group of people. I have thoroughly enjoyed myself here, and have met many new people, several of which have become fr...Read More

My best night of sleep so far. I went to bed at 11 pm, and didn't wake up until almost 7:30 this morning. My catheter came out this morning too, so now I get to pee like a big girl. Time for a quick rest and my shower, then it's start the daily routine...Read More

I can truly say that this is indeed a place "where butterflies grow". http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zzDaPrSbs2c I woke up at 5am crying this morning, no, not from anything bad, but from incredible joy. I have had such a wonderful journey the last 5...Read More

Just a quick note since I haven't added anything as of late - wish I had more time, but with a busy schedule gues thats how it goes!  Anyhow I've been getting the urge to dress lately, unfortunately it's hard to find the time and/or place to do it...Read More

I am feeling much better today after having surgery on the 20th. It looks like they are going to move me out of the hospital and transfer me into the after care facility tomorrow. I did three laps around the nurses station tonight.Read More

Sorry, if the grammar is not perfect but here it is a story I wrote years ago.  I hope people like it.  It is 100% fiction.   It was another hard day at work and Jack was on his way home. It was the same route, the same speed, and the ...Read More

I am starting to get some things packed. Tomorrow is my last day in Columbus. I will go to Warren on Thursday, then from there, it's off to Montreal on Friday.  I'll have 2 days in Montreal for sightseeing, etc. before my surgery on Monday the 20...Read More

Hello again,   When putting on the pantyhose they gave me troubles.  I skipped the bra for now because I am not sure the best way to put it on.   Byes.Read More

  Hello,   Last week was fun for me.  I got to meet new people some of them were nice to talk too.  I would like to talk to them again.  A couple of them said that I am a sweet girl that was very nice of them.  I had an...Read More

I started having trouble with leg muscle cramps and a feeling that my muscles were wasting away even though I doubled up on the exercise. Stopping the estrogenic herbs has brought back excess oil and acne.  Progesterone cream seems to help with w...Read More

The final payment made it to the surgeon's office today. One month from today I will be having surgery to finally get my physical body to match my gender. A dream 54 years in the making, about to come true. Read More

It's holding your friend because they are sobbing uncontrollably about something they weren't given a choice about.It's when you stand helpless in the waiting room, waiting for news, but can't go back because you aren't family.It's when you watch the l...Read More

I have mailed the final payment to my surgeon. Now I am preparing for the "kiss my **** goodbye" party this Saturday, July 21st. Then it's off to Montreal on August 16th for my surgery on the 20th It's been a wonderful journey the last 5 years.Read More

why am i so remote from heaven and her loving embrace? the material plane is a harsh one, no one to love, no where is home, no signs of life beyond the opressive void with chains of gravity everpresent to disallow one from simply flying away, away from...Read More

5 weeks left until surgery, and 9 days left until party !!! It's getting close, a dream 54 years in the making, about to come true.   August 20th, my surgery date. Bobbie JoRead More

My last journal entry was written out of frustration and i have come to find hardly any truth in it either, but rather an attempt at pragmatism, which love doesn't follow. yes i have trouble communicating in words, but i should more than make up for i...Read More

I went last year for the first time and so hope to go again this year!!  It is sooo much fun and I highly recommend it!  :)   Hugs,  j    Read More

I have been here and there looking for a woman for a serious relationship, and found one, but i fell into traps of what i thought women wanted because i wanted to find my soulmate and be who I am around her, but truth is that you can only give yourself...Read More

I had my cardiologist appointment and was cleared for surgery. On August 17th I will head to Montreal, and have my surgery on August 20th.   .I lived 49 years trying to be good to everyone but the one person that truly matters - myself. It was ...Read More

where am I heading. i was doing so well. i was happy, i felt like i needed nothing else except for the love of a woman, but i am not so sure there is love on that other side anymore. what i feel now is hallow. the door has been shut in my face by someo...Read More

2 months until surgery. I went and bought three cute dresses yesterday because I will need some loose fitting clothes during my recovery period, no tight fitting spandex for awhile.   Since my ekg was "abnormal", the surgeon wants me to go see a...Read More

Does anyone know, do we see spirits and ghosts first, or hear them?  I know that lightening we see first, then hear, but that has to do with the difference between the speeds of light and of sound.  But with spirits, both their sight and soun...Read More

i am enjoying the temporary increase of work hours available at my current job. i find that i cannot do enough in the day when i am working at a fulltime pace, and time seems to pass faster, but then again i do not get out as much and relax should this...Read More

I don't know where I am, but i feel like i have taken a couple of steps back and more forward in another direction entirely. I am starting to think wiser now; well actually starting to think forward more precisely. i have stopped drinking for what seem...Read More